It's been 5 years of hell. She has made my life hell. I finally got a descent lawyer. I will be divorced by the end of the year if I get my way. Shelly has been a pain in my ass since the moment I screwed up at that party. I asked Emma three times to go with me but she wouldn't, studying came first, she wanted an education, at 18 I saw that as a flaw, at 23 I see it as genius. I was stupid that's for sure. I made one drunken night turn into hell for me. I was automatically tied down but refused to marry her until i knew the baby was mine. When Ethan was born, there was no denying he was mine, looks exactly like me. Brown hair, brown eyes, strong chin. He also has my stubborn personality which is trying at times but I love him. I wouldn't trade it for anything, not even to have Emma back, although that is a very very close second.
I know from the small town we live in, that she went south after school. She always wanted to be in the south, I guess I didn't keep her from that. She could be married herself for all I know. I don't ask about her and no one thankfully offers the information. It hard since her mother and mine are friends. They don't talk a lot but when passing they gossip and catch up. Her mother has seen my son, she's been really nice to him. She also cuts me a look that tells me all need to know every time I see her in town.
I meet with my lawyer next week. I cannot wait to begin the process of getting out of this convenient marriage and move on. Shelly has been good since I finally laid it all out to her. She knows why we married, she knows that it was never her, and she knows I want my boy as much as possible.
"Dude, you going out with us this weekend?" My buddy, Eric, asks. He knows I need to get out and relax. He always thinks pussy will fix all, but I dont want that right now. I just want to begin again, find a place of my own, and get a routine with my son.
"No, I don't think so. I am house hunting on Saturday. I don't have much time before school starts and I need to settled." The shop hasn't been too busy where I can get away with a Saturday off and I need to take full advantage of the time. Ethan begins pre-school this fall and I need to stay in the school district we have him registered in. I am not uprooting his life because his mother and I aren't together.