Sitting here pondering. Seems like there is a lot of time for that these days. Thinking about the people in my life that I thought were solid. They were my go to for venting, celebrating, and thoughts. Well I seem to have been wrong. I haven't heard from a few of those people since this whole stay at home stuff has started. The conversations are generic at best. It just utterly amazes me how people will expect favors, ask for favors, and then when its time they could pay back they are MIA. When you go out of your way to help someone and then when need is expected its crickets. I guess its time to try to stop expecting something different. Its been the same for years the giving and the taking. Although I really always hope that something will give and it will be sent back the other way.
Then I have my friends that are there. God I have needed them. Those friends, I am thankful for. I have those that are letting me vent, offering to help when its needed, and trying to make me understand I am not in this alone. My boss, God love her, she has listened to me bitch and complain about everything and still has the professionalism to continue our work relationship like nothing was said. She allows me to say what I need from the heart and I am sure she is reading my emails or texts with a smile on her face, shaking her head, and then sends me something to let me know she understands but her hands are tied.
But here I am again, questioning why people don't think of others, why people will kick everyone out of their boat but beg them to come back once it's convenient for them. When you are in need and the person you thought would step up to help backs off and disappears and someone you didn't think would be around is the most helpful person in your life right now. When the back is weak its nice to have someone lift you up. As a married woman I depend on my husband during all times but sometimes a woman's point of view is what you need, someone that is just as emotional as you, someone that feels or see things the way you do. Men and women's perspectives are so different. But I am so very thankful for those women that are in my life and have been my sounding board through all this chaos.